That is something I can do

Why with every new year we tend to look at all the things we have left undone and didn't accomplish. Focusing on all the negative we see within ourselves? Nearly all of us make new years resoulutions and ask friends and family nearly everyone we know what their resoulutions are for this "new beginning." In the end aren't we all confessing what we feel our faults are? What we failed at the past year, what we dispise about ourselves? But with high hopes of making this new year better than the last?
Sure there is nothing wrong with setting goals to better ourselves. But for those who are like me, we create a huge list of all the things we see wrong in our life. Lets face it, if we choose to go down that path that list can get pretty hefty!
Never in my life have I ever been able to say that I accomplished all of my goals no matter how determined I thought I was. Come to think of it I must confess I never have accomplished a single thing that was on my monster of a list, EVER! If fact the bitter truth is, here it is just at the close of January and I have already lost sight of my goals I made just a few weeks ago.
I'm thinking why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we set ourselves up for failure and ugly guilt? I know I already feel that guilt bubbling inside me making me feel like a horrible person because I can't even be the person I feel that I should be. Or break those bad habits or build good habits for even one month!
Now I have to pause. Am I really that terrible? With all honesty the answer is NO! Why then, do I everyday try tierlessly to convince myself that I really am a horrible Mother...Wife...Friend...and Neighbor?
It all comes down to that list I have in my head. The ugly me that I see. What if instead of trying to be the perfect, gorgious woman I expect myself to be I decide to be the real me?

Instead of setting myself up for failure and guilt. I am going to chuck the idea of news years resolutions and focus on Today. Only today!What can I do today to make it better or more manageable than yesterday? After all it is in the small things that add up to great things isn't it?
Maybe the flaw is in thinking that I can some how change all that I dislike about me in one year, one month,even in one day. Maybe all I need to do is start each day with the intent to make today better than the last. Even if all I manage is to have the house a little cleaner, to have a more nutrishious meal, to have all the beds made before bed time or to even brush my hair or put on some lipstick.
Maybe by being me the real me. Just me with all her flaws and imperfections. Knowing that I have a long way to go but my potential is endless. Knowing that it is okay if I have those bad days, those monnmy break downs. Days were I feel hopeless. The truth is none of us can escape being imperfect, that is why we are here to learn and grow. To taste the bitter so we can know the sweetness and joy on life.
Just maybe by working on today each and everyday I will allow that beautiful woman I know that I am show herself and shine from time to time. And at the end of the year I can look back and see all the progress I have made:)
Thinking of just today, before the lights go out and I retire to sleep. What good can I do today?
Now that is something I can do.